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    March 17, 2002

    While in camp, i got

    While in camp, i got news that two of my friends got attached just recently. and so it begins, the start of two new fairy tale stories, magical in the fact that it's both first love. really really am happy for them, glad they found their one.

    i would be lying if i said i wasn't affected by it. when i'm back in the bunk after a tiring day of training, it's hard not to sink. esp since it's been exactly one year to the exact day. each day just passes like the one before... i can't control it, can't change it, just have to live it.

    abt a week after, i decided to play thru the rest of the songs on the mandy moore cd i brought to camp. found this one song that was really meaningful. "learnt what love is" if nothing esle, that's what i'll be taking with me. nothing less.

    sometimes you meet pple who can walk their lives without ever looking back. pple who, once they've decided on what they want, or what they don't want, will just carry on forward, not caring abt the pple around them. i guess for me it was just a mistake to wish for things that never can be. one long, tearful, flighty, exciting, hurting, tremendously magical dream that i'll have to wake up from, because such pple never give second chances.

    but try telling a dreamer to stop dreaming. dreams, wishes, hopes, prayers, of something better than this. how long can your faith hold out? one year, fourteen days and nights and counting...

    Posted by zai at 11:59 PM | Comments (0)