September 22, 2002
Here I am Alone again
Here I am
Alone again
Walking the streets
With nowhere to go
I can't see
what lies ahead of me
I can't go back
to the way the I used to be
Just walking away
tired of asking if or why
Just wanting to leave this place
the place we said goodbye
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I will try to keep busy, i will try to remember that it's a brand new start...
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I pray you'll be our eyes,
and watch us where we go.
And help us to be wise
in times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer,
when we lose our way
Lead us to the place,
guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe
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September 21, 2002
S Club 7 Never had
S Club 7
Never had A Dream Come True
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And so my road can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you
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my mom used to tell me that i always had a problem expressing my feelings. that i would just keep everything bottled up inside. nothing's changed i guess.
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September 15, 2002
i think i know why
i think i know why i was so burnt out the week before. we had to do weapon cleaning for two whole nights before we managed to book out. but when you compare that to what we did last week... high key area cleaning every morning and night, weapon cleaning and prep for live firing... was so glad to make it out of the camp gates this weekend.
got our 3rd sergeant rank this week. can't believe it really... i mean it was just like yesterday when i was looking up to my sergeants at bmt. now i'm almost one of them.
leaving for taiwan soon... ten days more actually. am so totally unprepared for it. =)
bryanne's left for the uk. hope nick's ok. sigh... just another chapter in their fairy tale.
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i looked up at the stars and they spelt out your name.
was i missing something?
because you're nowhere here on earth.
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September 08, 2002
had a real nice time
had a real nice time at home, even if i didn't manage to do much. really appreciated the weekend, the chance to get some rest and just do a mental shutdown. don't have much to say this weekend, don't want to force any of my thoughts down into writing... so that's it i guess.
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LIZ: Dad.
Mr. Parker: Yes.
LIZ: I'm gonna dance with Max. Not because it's tradition and not because I found some kind of loophole but because it's my choice. We love each other, and we are going to be together. And I love you, too.
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September 01, 2002
something must be really wrong
something must be really wrong with me, had two really good family meals outside, watched a real nice movie with my friends, met more of my old friends along the way, caught an episode of roswell on tv, witnessed a man utd draw... and i still feel as if i'm missing something...
don't feel happy or jumpy or anything... maybe it's just the book in syndrome...
thinking of the friends i have who have stay out vocations or are in utterly slack jobs in the army... really makes me wonder what on earth am i doing running behind an APC. but... you never get to ask 'why?' in the army...
man... i sound like i want to step off a building...
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am listening to the instrumental version of your song from the moulin rouge 2 collection now... and, well, it helps the healing i guess.
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