June 30, 2003
Prime
i'm wearing my long no. 4 uniform with a pair of muddy boots fresh from outfield into the e-learning centre where i'm typing this now... life just doesn't get any better than this... =P
anyway... i'm abt done with the bronco driving package... glad to have my feet back on the ground... but there's two more courses to run before i get my next breather...
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one of the trainees came up to me this morning and asked how to fill up his driver log book... as in which column was for engine hour and which one was for milage... and as i stared at that blank form, nothing constructive came to mind... i wasn't sure of something that i could have closed my eyes and filled it up a few months ago... heh... i'm losing it man...
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omg... sonia's getting married! *cheers*! the princess has found her one...
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June 27, 2003
Ler si siang?
i was going to wait and see if there was going to be any changes before tryping this out... but i've been having the most vivid of dreams for the past four nights... monday's was about someone coming into my field and chopping down a tree... thing was i didn't think he'd managed to break the whole tree into two... but when i turned around, the trunk was servered quite badly... last night's one was abt someone disappointing me even though i saved him from something... which is quite scary considering the things that have been happening recently.
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besides that... i've been exposed to a cancerous level of hokkien for the past week... looks quite bad considering that i'm starting to think my thoughts in dialect... it's all the driving and specialist training wing instructors' fault!!! haha =)
bronco driving was fun, albeit half the time i was bored to death waiting for my turn... ended up returning to my trainee ways... with a stick of mentos in my pocket and the ability to space in and out at will... =P
ah... orion was in full bloom last night...
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Anytime you feel like you just can’t hold on
Just hold on to my love and I’ll help you be strong
But you’re so afraid to lose, and baby I can’t reach your heart
I can’t face this world that’s keeping us apart
When I can be the one to show you
Everything you missed before
Just hold on now, cause I can be the one to give you more
Let you know
Anytime you need love baby I’m on your side (hey)
Just let me be the one I can make it alright (I can make it alright)
Anytime you need love baby you're in my heart
I can make it alright.
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June 25, 2003
Or not to
it's very simple for me... if i was gtw oc... i wouldn't charge soh knowing that he's a good soldier. i wouldn't. but he did get charged anyway because i'm not one of those people up there.
so why can't i start something right here and now? punishing someone for a mistake is to ensure that such a thing will not ever happen again, correct? what if a simple telling off can do the job? why drag the person thru the streets of humiliation and start throwing extras at him? esp when you know it's never going to happen again.
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June 24, 2003
Firing squad
i cannot be a cold-blooded murderer if my life depended on it... that i know for sure... sigh.
blood boiled when we found out that a bunch of trainees went up to the e-mart after lunch without asking for permission and some were even caught playing arcade games. the normal fuss up happened... names were taken down and all sorts of devious plans were draw up in our *evil* minds to deal with them.
and then it had to happen, one of the instructors had to screw up the whole damn show... me! hahahaha!
hey... when i told the ic "i don't ******* care what you do during lunch, just be here by 1330" i didn't mean go play games in the canteen... sigh, so in the end we had to let go of all the trainees on the list... except for the one who went to play arcade.
and guess who it turned out to be... the only trainee who so far i *think* can make it one... hai... such a disappointment... and now i have his name on a little blue piece of paper...
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walked in the rain today... i guess it's up to me to keep those days alive, even if the world around doesn't believe in such things anymore...
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June 21, 2003
Seoul
tekong, sispec, bravo, platoon 1, section 4, 8 men, du wei, derrick, gabriel, lionel, alvin, yuyong, zai and yan xiang, sgt see, lao cb, sgt ahmed, don't be a clown, sgt lim, ta ma de, sgt teo, pl sgt lee, bitch, 2wo alvin romano, thank god for the operation, master velu, what did he say, 1wo/mwo tang, things are better now, the last oc was a guardsman, now the oc's a commando, hahaha, section battle course, reclaimed land, cat 1, 20+ bound fire movement and redrawal, gypsy, yx the pacer me the compass, wanderer, missile strike boar, bloody cape, lost a m16s1 rifle, wolfpack, missed the tonner home, catwalk, heat exhaustion, night owl, nutcracker, du wei on drugs, waking up to see sgt see next to me, grandslam, picked the short straw that got us the ambush mission, got lost on the way to the ambush site, once we were doing an orange and i looked over at yanxiang and he just shook his head like he couldn't take it anymore... i just said 'come on, hang in there' full well knowing i wanted to die too, soc, got cheated by my pacer by ten seconds but he got he over the line anyway, ippt, one sgt started walking and he was faster than me running, the 32km, hell.
one year anni. here's to all of us! =)
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June 20, 2003
Has it been that long?
maybe i'll never get to feel it for myself in this life of mine... maybe i'll just die without knowing... maybe such a thing never existed in the first place... maybe it was just all a lie to begin with.
maybe one day i'll laugh at myself for typing this out.
maybe one day i'll cry knowing that i was right.
but i don't want to be right. i want to be...
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June 19, 2003
Coke and root beer
being able to read a person's face is a highly under-rated skill... hahaha! it was almost too easy knowing what the trainees were thinking just by looking at them... and with that, my total score is now 120!
sigh... don't really like to whack trainees. i mean... what's the point? it's just a tempoary measure to get things done... but if everyone was a bit more on and co-operative... i'm sure the atmosphere needn't be so tense and angry...
just realised that the studs on the back of my black cap is starting to fall out... 2 of them are on the verge of peeling away... i thought it'd never happen... but it did... maybe it's a sign =)
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received a few messages from bry... hai... things could have been so different... we wouldn't only have sad stuff to talk abt for one...
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even after so long, rebecca's homepage still rocks my world! =)
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and how else could we discover the stars?
Posted by zai at 09:22 PM
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June 18, 2003
Recover
and so the course begins. for the next two weeks we've got 68 trainees under us... fresh out of sispec rite into our arms =P kinda makes you think where all the time inbetween has gone to, considering that this batch of aisl is my direct jc juniors... so it's been exactly one year since i passed out from sispec to join aisl.
one of my trainees asked: "so... you just teach weapons and gunnery and you do that for your whole NS life?"
i nodded and replied, "yup, and it a pretty good life... =)" i mean, i wouldn't be here at the e-learning centre typing this entry and playing counter-strike at the same time if i was in 40 SAR... *guilt* =P
don't worry... i'm constantly reminding myself that one day i'll have to pay for all this good karma... i just hope it's swift and decisive...
and guess what? bingxun is one of my trainees! couldn't believe my eyes when i ran down the nominal roll and spotted one CPL TAN BING XUN rite there on the list... oh well, hope i didn't scare him too much today... hahaha!
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was aiming to hit a score of 120 today, but i got only 60... then again 50% isn't entirely that bad either.
Posted by zai at 09:48 PM
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June 17, 2003
Back home
I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go.
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way
Lead us to the place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che tu hai
I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore resterà
And hold it in our hearts.
A ricordarci che
When stars go out each night,
Eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'è
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
Sogniamo un mondo senza più violenza
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno lo dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace, di fraternità
La forza che ci dà
We ask that life be kind
È il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amor
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro sé
Another soul to love
Let this be our prayer,
Just like every child.
Need to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
È la fede che
Hai acceso in noi,
Sento che ci salverà
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